denouement (or the lack of it)
“do I stay there? I don’t want to do that”
- “no, not at all”
“so how does it work?”
- “it’s just when you feel like it”
(first of all, I doubt I’ll ever feel like it)
“how does it work exactly?”
- “so… beep, beep, beeeeep”
i have the information - it doesn’t mean I will use it. Sorry not sorry - I appreciate it. I really do. But sometimes we have to choose for ourselves, even if the choice is knowingly not the smartest one. Call it a hunch, call it whatever you want.
i call it “we’ll see”. The see-ness of the future. The one that makes us decide to go for it or not.
it is based on information of all types - including unconscious memories.
like the one of the boat, the lack of outfits, the snakes in the bedroom. Unconscious until they’re not.
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i prefer to think it’ll all be for the better - of us. Not just me. Us.
i opt to act out of hope and not despair. Even if the hope comes directly as a response to the latter… is it a choice, I wonder?
perhaps. even if propelled by one of those unconscious memories, again.
but I do know what I want. How I want it, not so much. The WHAT is easier. It’s targeted. It’s visual, tangible in more than one way.
i can surely hope for what I want - and I can visualise it. In terrific detail, horrific at times - of us hashtag blessed, but in a new setting, with new hopes, plans and dreams. Travels and adventures. Kindness and overture.
as for now, there’s still no denouement… and I truly despise any kind of plot that denies me one.