bitter(not-sweet)
the stream comes along
it comes as always
- wrong thing at the right time
- right thing at the wrong time
.
never forever will I be able -
fortunately finding my place -
after being in the right place
at the exact time for something inherently good
.
I may slide around
space, infinity
all chances are endless
I'm so small..
but no chance ever seems to be
possibly, simply
mine.
.
I may slide around
space, infinity
all chances are endless
I'm so small..
but no chance ever seems to be
possibly, simply
mine.
.
.
.
don't ask me to feel ever again
I'm closing it up,
sewing it tight
hiding it out
in your plain sight
.
don't feel - it hurts
once I imagined
it was only in my head
it's not - it's out there
I shall never show it
I shall never carry it
the empathy, the smiles, the fucking understanding
of being another
of creating a wave
crashing onto my chest
now made into stone
.
with a beautiful dress
because disguise is never enough
nor the coldness inside
it keeps me from frowning
asking questions
stuff I should've never learnt do to
in the first place...
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
mine to be, mine to feel.
not anger - don't get me wrong
reality is,
I can't get mad anymore
.
nevertheless not changing
the ever present paradigm
the sad fortune
the bitter taste
the kick in the teeth,
always and forever
- in the wrong place at the right time
- or in the right place at the wrong time...